Life is not where I expected it would be right now for me, it's okay though. Taking one day at a time is something I've become good at and I don't really mind not jumping ahead of myself. Looking forward to the next few weeks and the challenges that not only I seek out, but the ones that seek me out as well.
I know I didn't post after going to the CODA conference and I think I'm going to keep it that way. It was an incredible experience that I don't want to wait another year for; I met some of the most amazing people ever and have memories that are going to last me a lifetime. Never met so many people that just "got me" without me having to say or explain anything.. Just amazing. This probably sounds all frou-frou to you.. Doesn't really matter 'cause I'm writing this for me.
I've had some time to think about my life and how things have gone over the past few weeks, months, and years, and I just want something different this time; I just want a change. I've learned a lot about myself and what I should expect from myself and those around me. I am going to be mindful of the decisions I make and hopefully move closer to where I'd like to be.
I believe that everything happens for a reason.
I don't know how to even describe how I felt yesterday - there were so many ups and downs, moments of fear and excitement, genuine laughter and happiness, and chills going down my spine. I did things I didn't think I was capable of doing - I came out of my shell and did something different; this happened because of you… You helped me out of my comfort zone. I feel different, almost like this can help me accomplish anything and I will for you and for us.
Every moment I looked at you yesterday I saw so many positive qualities, ones I wish I could possess as genuinely as you do. Some of these qualities I may have had hiding, but I didn't even know I had them in me. You've now brought something else out in me that I didn't know existed and for that I am grateful.
I truly want to thank you for shedding light on what can be possible when we support each other. I already knew that I wanted to be by your side for the rest of our lives and support you in anyway that I can.. It's just now I know that the possibilities with us are endless.
Can't really formulate any words at this point.. This was kind of close.
Nothing can be expected, and nothing is indefinitely certain.
Got home from the gym last night and everything was fine.
Hopped into the shower as usual and got ready for bed.
Had a snack since I was starving, watched some TV and before I knew it I was in bed with my alarm set.
Woke up this morning, looked at my alarm, turned it off.
Contacted the workplace to say I wouldn't be in today.
Had no desire to get out of bed to go to work, to eat breakfast, to do anything at all.
As I write this from my bed I feel like I've taken 100 steps backwards.
100 steps away from everything I've been working towards.
About 3 weeks ago or so I started up on my medication again.
Life has been throwing me a lot of curveballs and dealing with it on my own hasn't been easy.
I wanted to balance my stress and emotions as much as I could - medication was the answer.
As much as I want to say it has helped, it hasn't.
Being my own support system.. I don't know how to do it.
Running and physical activity was really helpful for me over the past 6 months or so, while I wasn't medicated.
The activity balanced with the support system I had was working.
I've been running/in the gym pretty much daily and I've got nothing.
Last night I sweat my ass off and here I am still in bed, when I should be at work.
Some inspiration for the week.. Fitting since it's Superbowl Sunday.
1 in 5 Canadians will experience a form of mental illness at
At this very moment, some 3 million Canadians are
Once depression is recognized, help can make a difference for 80%
Life has it’s ups and downs and yes, we’re meant to feel emotions,
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